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MUSING FOR FRIDAY 28TH, AUGUST 2020

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“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” Frank Herbert, Dune

This image from the NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope features the spectacular galaxy NGC 2442. This galaxy was host to a supernova explosion, known as SN2015F, that was created by a white dwarf star. The white dwarf was part of a binary star system and pulled mass from its companion, eventually becoming too greedy and taking on more than it could handle. This unbalanced the star and triggered a runaway nuclear fusion that eventually led to an intensely violent supernova explosion.  SN2015F was spotted in March 2015 in the galaxy named NGC 2442, nicknamed the Meat hook Galaxy owing to its extremely asymmetrical and irregular shape. The supernova shone brightly for quite some time and was easily visible from Earth through even a small telescope until later that summer. Text credit: ESA (European Space Agency). Image credit: ESA/Hubble & NASA, S. Smartt et al. If you want to learn more and see a full resolution from ESA Hubble site visit: https://www.nasa.gov/image-feature/goddard/2020/hubble-hooks-a-supernova-host-galaxy

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” Plato

It does not seem to matter if your earth side or in orbit, there is always housekeeping chores… Lol. This is a picture from August 14th, 2020 of Astronaut Chris Cassidy collecting the trash on the ISS (Internal Space Station). Image credit: NASA. If you want to see a bigger version of this picture visit: https://www.nasa.gov/image-feature/astronaut-chris-cassidy-does-housekeeping-in-space

“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.” Marie Curie

How cool is that!? A high resolution camera on NASA’s Mars Reconnaissance Orbiter (MRO) captured this avalanche falling down a 1640 foot tall (500 meters) cliff on May 29th, 2019. This image was taken at Mar’s north pole area. Image Credit: NASA/JPL – Caltech/University of Arizona. If you want to see a bigger version of this picture visit: https://www.nasa.gov/image-feature/capturing-an-avalanche-on-mars

“The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.” Joseph Campbell

The barred spiral galaxy known as NGC 4907 shows its best side from 270 million light-years away to anyone who can see it from the northern hemisphere. This is a new image from the NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope of the galaxy, displaying its beautiful spiral arms, wound loosely around its central bright bar of stars. Shining brightly below the galaxy is a star that is actually within our own Milky Way galaxy. This star appears much brighter than the many millions of stars in NGC 4907 as it is 100,000 times closer, residing only 2500 light-years away. NGC 4907 is also part of the Coma Cluster, a group of over 1000 galaxies, some of which can be seen around NGC 4907  in this image. This massive cluster of galaxies lies within the constellation of Coma Berenices, which is named for the locks of Queen Berenice II of Egypt: the only constellation named after a historical person. Text credit: ESA (European Space Agency). Image credit: ESA / Hubble & NASA, M. Gregg. If you want to see a bigger version of this picture visit: https://www.nasa.gov/image-feature/goddard/2020/hubble-sees-near-and-far

“Fear is the main source of superstition, and one of the main sources of cruelty. To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom.” Bertrand Russell, Unpopular Essays

This is a picture of NASA’s Curiosity Mars Rover. It has been on the red planet for 8 years now. Since landing, the rover has traveled more than 14 miles (23 kilometres), drilling 26 rock samples and scooping six soil samples. The mission was to study whether Mars had the water, chemical building blocks, and energy sources that may have supported microbial life billions of years ago. It will soon be joined by another rover – Perseverance. It was launched on July 30th, 2020. The rover’s selfie was taken June 15th, 2018 Earth time. Image Credit : NASA/JPL – Caltech. To see a bigger version of this picture visit: https://www.nasa.gov/image-feature/curiosity-celebrates-8-years-on-the-red-planet

“Once we overcome our fear of being tiny, we find ourselves on the threshold of a vast and awesome Universe that utterly dwarfs – in time, in space, and in potential – the tidy anthropocentric proscenium of our ancestors.” Carl Sagan

HEY!! I AM LOOKING AT YOU!! THAT’S WHO!! LOLOLOLOLOL

If you are reading this then you have continued to survive Covid -19. And so have I!! That is a very good thing for both of us!! Therefore life is good and I cannot complain too much at the moment. Looking at the numbers during the first week of August, the good old USA was adding 40 to almost 50 thousand new cases each day. With Texas, Florida, and California leading the way . Texas was just under 8 thousand deaths as was Florida. Total US deaths were just breaking 160,000.

By the time of publishing, the numbers for total deaths – was just under 185,000. Texas was right at 12,500 deaths and Florida was at 11,000. Unreal when you think about it. Let me pause and say this again, 25,000 added deaths in the last month and 55,000 in the last two months?! To put in comparison, in the Vietnam War, US casualties were estimated at 47,434. Wow! I guess we are over achievers. Are we winning yet??

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I decided to include an assortment of pictures from my trail running this summer with Marvin on the Blue Lake Trail in the Rawah Wilderness. What is the old saying, “You Really Don’t Know What You Have Until It’s Gone.” This applies to anything in your life. For me, in the month of August, it is the destruction of this beautiful area due to wildfire. The Cameron Peak fire ignited on August 13th, 2020. As I write this, August 28th, the fire is at approximately 23,000 acres in size and has zero containment as of yet. It is hard to think that a lot of the landscape I photographed and ran through with Marvin this summer, is now gone or potentially will be. Forever changed. I know that at some point it will come back but it will be 100 years at best. Long after I am gone. It really does feel unbelievable.

This picture was taken June 29th, 2020 looking West at Clark Peak. Here I am standing on Blue Lake Pass.
This picture was taken July 14th, 2020 on the Blue Lake trail. Here Marvin is enjoying a little sun and space in a meadow.
This picture was taken July 21st, 2020 on the Blue Lake trail. I am looking up at Blue Lake Pass. If you look closely you can see a whole pocket of blue Columbines. The Colorado State Flower.
This picture was also taken on July 21st, 2020. Here I am standing on Blue Lake Pass at 11,000 feet. I am looking North West into the Rawah Wilderness.
This picture was taken July 29th, 2020 just before you get to Blue Lake. Still an abundance of wild flowers.
This picture was taken on August 4th, 2020. It is a picture of Marvin standing on the shore of Blue Lake.
This picture was taken August 10th, 2020 looking South toward the Blue Lake trail head. It is 5.5 miles back down the trail. This was the last trail run in the area before the start of the wildfire. How was I to know that this would be my last run here for the foreseeable future?!
This picture was taken August 21st, 2020 looking West. The area the smoke and flames are coming from is the same area where I took the above photos this summer. Image credit: Wellington Crew.

MARVIN’S GATE

Have you ever had an experience in which something you know or think you know becomes fully crystal clear, an Aha Moment? Or to put it another way, a deeper understanding of an existing condition or mental thought? Well if you have then you will know what I mean, but if you haven’t let me explain. Over the years I have read and listened to my fair share of self-help books. And I felt that I had a pretty good handle on what they were trying to get across. Especially on the ones that dealt with fear. My first book to read on this was one by the late Susan Jeffers, “Feel the Fear and DO IT ANYWAY. I had read her book or listened to it several times and felt that I had gotten a lot out of it. But knowing something and “full realization” are two different things. And sometimes the “full realization” pops into place when you least expect it.

Earlier this month, I was in the process of putting up firewood for the coming winter. This usually entails getting a couple of cords of wood dumped in the driveway and then me filling up wheelbarrow after wheelbarrow after wheelbarrow and rolling it to the backyard to be stacked. A somewhat long and boring process in my opinion.

Marvin the dog, I am sure thinks the same thing. Due to his size and exuberance, he is not allowed off lead in the front yard, so he waits patiently by the “gate” that separates front from back. He is not an aggressive dog, but he can get very excited when other dogs and people walk by. So I load a wheelbarrow, move the gate, come through, put the gate back, roll said wheelbarrow into the backyard, Marvin follows, I throw a dog toy or ball, wrestle with him for a few moments, etc.. and then stack wood. Repeat process, over and over, again and again.

Now the interesting part that became an “Aha Moment” for me occurred when my wife Janet was watching the process as she unloaded groceries from the car and was amazed that Marvin just stood there by this unsecured and flimsy gate, just waiting…. “He is such a big dog and that gate is so small, why doesn’t he just knock it down or jump over it or run through it, she asked?” I stopped and looked, really looked. Here was this massive dog, stymied by a small gate. Her statement and Marvin’s appearance at the gate stopped me in my tracks.

Of course we both knew the superficial answer, he is afraid, but a dawning deeper realization started to jell in my mind. Let me explain. Marvin had a traumatic experience at 6 months of age when a gate of this same size and design fell on him while he was sleeping. The gate in question is a typical child gate, very light weight, made of wood and somewhat flimsy. But it scared him and he has had a fear of these child gates ever since. At the time of the incident he was a small dog in comparison to the gate, now fast forward and this is not the case anymore. He is a large, powerful LSG (Livestock Guardian) dog, but still hindered by a tiny gate. With this understanding, the light bulb in my mind popped on! Lol.

The Aha Moment is not the fact that he is afraid, it is the fact that Marvin’s fear IS ALL IN HIS HEAD. The fear is not real, except in his mind. The only place that it can exist is in his thoughts. The gate is not dangerous to him. It’s danger is a product of his imagination, causing him to fear the gate falling on him again. Whether Marvin has the cognitive ability to understand this or not is irrelevant. He is telling himself a story, just like humans do when we are afraid of something. Marvin may not have a choice to change his story of the gate but humans with our higher brain functioning have this ability. As hard as this may be, as ugly and messy as it may get, we can do it. Whether something is dangerous or not is a real concern, but fear is a choice and we can change our story.

Reflecting on this over the last couple of weeks, I have had to ask myself what are my Marvin gates? What have I not allowed myself to do because of misconceived fear? Can I change my story and continue to change my story as needed? All good questions and for me a life long endeavor. Good food for thought.

Well that is going to be about it for me on this Blog post. Again, I hope you have given more thought to minimalism and how it could make a positive change in your life and in the world. If you want to learn more please visit the web site: https://www.theminimalists.com/minimalism/

I promise to have a few more book reviews on the next post. So take care my friends and remember to wash your hands, wear your mask when in crowds and physical distancing. Adios!!

“May your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous.., leading to the most amazing views.” Edward Abbey